Sometimes I feel lost like I never lost 60 pounds. I forget what it took to get me there and start thinking I'm resilient that I won't gain my weight back. On the other hand, I think I am fat and the only way to know for sure is to try on my clothes and look in the mirror.
I weighed Saturday morning and was pleased to see I lost the 3 pounds I “so called” gained the week before which helped remind me where I stand. Today I went shopping at Elders for a pair of shoes, but didn't find anything. However, I saw a few shirts that were really cute , so I grabbed a large and said to myself “lets go see if you've gained.” To my pleasant surprise I have not and can still fit into a large and smile at the person in the mirror. I didn't try the medium because this was a fitted shirt why take the chance to scar myself right?
Why do you think our mind plays so much havoc on us? Do men go through this do you think? I'd love to hear back from some of the men in the audience.
The bottom line is I need to take it easy on myself. I need to keep the fear that I have of gaining weight and reverting back to the sick Sheri because if I don't the chances of going backwards are high.
Keep focused, keep true to yourself the worst thing you can do is to lie to yourself when you know in reality your eating way to much. This will always be my battle in life as well as Diabetes. Perhaps my body one day will not care that I am skinny and revert back to the chronic pain that once existed. I sure hope not, but if it does I cannot give up ever!
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